Perfect Part 4

A little recap from the previous part. Aakash has finished his 12^th and he had an argument with his father about his career. But he agreed at the end. He joined the engineering college but his grades started to fall gradually. And at the end of 4^th semester he got a year back. He went to the beach on his bike that day. He sat on a rock and started playing with the sand. He thought his life has become like the sand. No matter how harder he tried holds it, it slipped out of fingers faster. He came back to his hostel immediately after that as he didn’t want to let anyone know what was in his heart. As soon as he entered the room, he went on his knees as a defeated king and covered his face with his hands and started crying like an innocent baby. His pain doesn't seem to reduce. His crying turned into screaming. He started punching the wall. His agony seems endless. His frustration of so many years was coming out. He started feeling the pain in his head. As he could not stand anymore he put his hand on the floor. Then he sat there against the wall alone. His face was drenched with tears. He started thinking what has happened to him. How his life has changed. How he has changed in past 3 years. He has changed so much that he could recognize himself in the mirror. Who thought a good student in school one of the topper will struggle to get just passing marks. He never planned this. Everything in his life seems so destroyed. He has nowhere to go. Every path he chooses to go seems blurred. No one was there for him. No relative no friends no one. When he first came to college, he thought he will study hard and will be a good student in college as well. Life tuned out to be rather opposite as he has dreamt of it. But now anything can't be done. He thought to himself. Everything he planned turned out to be a disaster. As he sat there he saw sleeping pills on the shelf. He thought now this is the last option to get out of this pain. He got up and took out 15-20 pills randomly dissolved it in glass of water and gulped it. After 10 minutes he couldn’t stand. He slowly leaned down and sat against the wall. He started to feel the dizziness. He smiled on the irony that now may be everyone will be happy that he didn't failed in doing this and he closed his eyes laid there as the pain subsidized forever. One more talent was wasted just coz of parent’s hypocrisy.

Via my blog I want to ask all the parents why can't they understand their children feeling and let their child choose their own career? I know they are experienced but they should think about child's interest. They should not lay weight of their dreams on their child’s shoulder. In today’s world anything can be made a career. I mean anything a writer a choreographer painter anything. Why are they being Hippocratic?

Perfect Part 3

A little recap from the previous part. Aakash has finished his 12th and he had an argument with his father about his career. But he agreed at the end. He gave engineering entrance exam and came out with flying colors. As the college was a little far away from the city, he decided to live in the hostel. It would be a good experience for him as he has always been living with his parents. In the starting everything was fine. He was allotted a room with a guy. Although he was not of his branch but he was fine. In the starting classes seemed also interesting. But as the time passed things start to change. He was no more interested in class as he could not understand anything in class. He was having a tough time with his subject. On top of that he went into the company of some rich brats of the college. As he couldn’t get along with other student of the class he started hanging out with these guys. But as the time passed he felt he has become the joker of the group. He belonged to a lower middle class family came from a rural area he couldn't spend money as other guys used to. He could not afford branded clothes, luxurious meals other guy used to make fun of him. He started drifting away from everyone in college. He went into depression. His life was confined between hostel and the class room. So as he has no one to talk to, he started writing stories in the class. He started not paying attention to what teacher was teaching. He will be lost in his own fictional world. Slowly he lost interest in his studies. When the results of first semester came all were shocked. Aakash got only 50%.  As the time passed semester after semester his grade started to fall gradually. Even he got some backs. When he cleared those backs, he got more backs in next semester. It became a chain of backs. He went home after his 4th semester exams. When he was busy reading a novel in his room his dad came in


Dad- Aakash it seem you have lost interest in your studies. What’s happening? We are providing you all the facilities even then you are not getting good marks


Aakash- Dad I never wanted to be an engineer. You forced me into it


Dad- I know what you wanted to be. I am not like your uncle who has a business to back you up if you could not succeed


Aakash- I know that dad. I never asked for your help. I could have managed but you never trusted me


Dad- These are all excuses to escape the reality.


Aakash- That’s the problem dad. You have decided that I am wrong without even considering the reason behind it


Dad- Aakash doesn’t give me this philosophical crap.


Aakash- Dad this argument is endless. You will never admit your mistake and I can’t live with the fact that I was wrong. So let’s just not talk about it


Aakash went out of the room. After few days Aakash’s result came. He couldn’t pass one of his critical papers. So he got a year back. He has to sit home for the whole year.